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Monday, August 13, 2012

R.I.P

rest in peace... it's ramadhan... some says most good people usually will rest in peace during rejab, syaaban or ramadhan... and i believe that my atok is a good person coz she passed away on the tenth of ramadhan this year.. it was quick.. i had a call 3 days before ramadhan atok 'sakit kuat'... one of my aunties said they've already recited the yaasin for her... my sis told me that atok asked for my forgiveness if she's not able to see me ever... we rushed home for the long 4 hours drive that nite.. arrived at 3 a.m.. atok still awake.. she couldnt sleep at all... we talked for about an hour.. she was so happy... she said now everybody was home to see her.. she got the strength... the next day we called up for a medical assistant to check on her... the m.a confirmed that she's just fine in spite of the possible lung infection that made her breathing difficult..

she was happy... she looked around... she talked... she's in her great condition.. and then she said "orang-orang ni kalau aku kata aku sakit semua tak percaya... bila orang ni semua balik tengok aku.. aku ni jadi sihat.." i told her it was because she's happy... that reflect her health... i came back to kl that evening... on the way.. my aunt said something made me realize might be that will be my last time seeing atok... though i couldnt let her go but i 'redha'.. since then my heart jumped out everytime the phone rang and my sis's name was on  the screen.. on the second day of ramadhan.. atok got into difficulty breathing again and unconcious... she was then rushed to the hospital...

on the sixth day of ramadhan.. we rushed to taiping because mak long bah passed away.. we heard that she got a mild stroke a week before... and on the same same day.. atok called up for me.. my sis didnt tell me right away coz she knew i was still in taiping... later that weekend i went home again.. atok was brought home coz she'd been asking to go home ever since she gained her conciousness... we all knew that she insist not to be sent to the hospital... she didnt wanna die in the hospital.. she told me earlier that she didnt wanna die alone.. she looked very ill.. she couldnt talk much.. she couldnt eat.. but she still recognize me while i slowly massage her hard blotted stomach.. the next day.. before went back to kl.. i came to see her again... deep in my heart i wanna stay to tend her.. but somehow we headed to kl after zohor... she's breathing by the oxygen tube.. after iftar.. hubby googled for the oxygen supplier around jb and at the same time i got a call from mak busu... she'd rest in peace... Innalillahi wainna ilahi raji'un... and i had all the memories around her... al-fatihah...