The year comes to the end with sweet memories, funs, sadness, griefs, anxiety, excitements and all emotions blended as one before saying good bye to 2011. Let see if I can summarize the whole year in this post...
JANUARY
Well.. the year started with a good news.. i was promoted after 12 years of waiting.. errr... should i say 9 years of waiting to be fair considering the 3 years of probation? Alhamdulillah... Praise to ALLAH... but the next day, i received a call with news that my Pak Lang passed away.. Al-Fatihah.. He was a good uncle.. at least to me.. regardless of what he has done in his life.. He've never hurt me in person.. I could still remember when I was 4, he never failed to buy me sweets whenever he came back home.. he lived in K.L back then.. he never got married and he died at the age of 50..
It was a challenge when my little princess refused to go to school.. took us almost a month to convince her.. Even until now, we haven't had any clue on the reason why she refused to school.. I was quite surprised it happened because she's kind of a strong girl in character.. she's not afraid of darkness.. she's blunt.. she has a kind of face that my friend call 'selamba'.. Finally we concluded that she was bored on the first month coz the teachers only did some revisions.. and that would strongly suit one of her character.. easily bored...
JUNE
I lost my baby when he/she is only 5 weeks in my womb.. I started to bleed a day after i had my hcg test positive.. it happenned after solat subuh.. i really hoped that he/she could survive but he/she is just not meant to be with us.. could be because it was so hectic in the office.. but i know.. ALLAH knows better.. and i am redha..
SEPTEMBER
I received a news that my beloved grandma fell while trying to get into the bathroom.. since then she couldnt get up nor walk.. but i believed that she lost her will for losing her beloved son earlier.. she didnt seem to be cheerish since her lost.. and i somehow feel bad coz i couldnt do much for her.. but i knew.. she'll smile with happiness when we came home to see her.. then i realized that nothing that she asked for other than an attention.. seems like she feels that everybody is trying to keep a distance from her.. and feels lonely.. she'll smile if you sit by her side.. keep her company..
And langkawi.. here we were again.. spending 4 days 3 nites at malibest resort.. it was good.. hubby got on the jetski for the first time.. oh i wish i could too.. but who's gonna take care of the kids?? hmm.. maybe next time.. it was an enjoyable vacation though despite of the flight delay on our way back.. we had fun!! i had my corelle.. tho didnt get my pyrex.. okay.. we'll be coming again next year langkawi!! oh.. it has been our annual vacation since... errr.. 2008?
NOVEMBER
It was my second lost after carrying him/her for about 11 weeks.. hubby was in Palembang for SEA Game at that time.. frankly.. we didnt expect to to have him/her so fast.. but there he/she was... i was so worried that it would happen again.. and then the tenth week.. i had my first spot.. i was quite depressed for being alone and anxious for the unknown.. hoping for a miracle to happen tho deep in my heart i knew what's gonna happen.. i just said my prayer day and night that the baby would have the will to survive.. but then again.. he/she was still not meant for us... ironically.. i was kind of comfortable being in the labor hall while waiting for the doctor..
DECEMBER
Well the year saying it's goodbye kiss without any spectacular nor bad.. it just moves slow and relax.. waiting for another year to come.. may another year come with greater fortune..
JANUARY
Well.. the year started with a good news.. i was promoted after 12 years of waiting.. errr... should i say 9 years of waiting to be fair considering the 3 years of probation? Alhamdulillah... Praise to ALLAH... but the next day, i received a call with news that my Pak Lang passed away.. Al-Fatihah.. He was a good uncle.. at least to me.. regardless of what he has done in his life.. He've never hurt me in person.. I could still remember when I was 4, he never failed to buy me sweets whenever he came back home.. he lived in K.L back then.. he never got married and he died at the age of 50..
It was a challenge when my little princess refused to go to school.. took us almost a month to convince her.. Even until now, we haven't had any clue on the reason why she refused to school.. I was quite surprised it happened because she's kind of a strong girl in character.. she's not afraid of darkness.. she's blunt.. she has a kind of face that my friend call 'selamba'.. Finally we concluded that she was bored on the first month coz the teachers only did some revisions.. and that would strongly suit one of her character.. easily bored...
JUNE
I lost my baby when he/she is only 5 weeks in my womb.. I started to bleed a day after i had my hcg test positive.. it happenned after solat subuh.. i really hoped that he/she could survive but he/she is just not meant to be with us.. could be because it was so hectic in the office.. but i know.. ALLAH knows better.. and i am redha..
SEPTEMBER
I received a news that my beloved grandma fell while trying to get into the bathroom.. since then she couldnt get up nor walk.. but i believed that she lost her will for losing her beloved son earlier.. she didnt seem to be cheerish since her lost.. and i somehow feel bad coz i couldnt do much for her.. but i knew.. she'll smile with happiness when we came home to see her.. then i realized that nothing that she asked for other than an attention.. seems like she feels that everybody is trying to keep a distance from her.. and feels lonely.. she'll smile if you sit by her side.. keep her company..
And langkawi.. here we were again.. spending 4 days 3 nites at malibest resort.. it was good.. hubby got on the jetski for the first time.. oh i wish i could too.. but who's gonna take care of the kids?? hmm.. maybe next time.. it was an enjoyable vacation though despite of the flight delay on our way back.. we had fun!! i had my corelle.. tho didnt get my pyrex.. okay.. we'll be coming again next year langkawi!! oh.. it has been our annual vacation since... errr.. 2008?
NOVEMBER
It was my second lost after carrying him/her for about 11 weeks.. hubby was in Palembang for SEA Game at that time.. frankly.. we didnt expect to to have him/her so fast.. but there he/she was... i was so worried that it would happen again.. and then the tenth week.. i had my first spot.. i was quite depressed for being alone and anxious for the unknown.. hoping for a miracle to happen tho deep in my heart i knew what's gonna happen.. i just said my prayer day and night that the baby would have the will to survive.. but then again.. he/she was still not meant for us... ironically.. i was kind of comfortable being in the labor hall while waiting for the doctor..
DECEMBER
Well the year saying it's goodbye kiss without any spectacular nor bad.. it just moves slow and relax.. waiting for another year to come.. may another year come with greater fortune..
HAPPY NEW YEAR
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